Fuck this
Everything I do for our relationship feels like it is in vain… I feel like there is nothing I can do but wait around on you. I just want to hear you finally say that you love me… Why is that so hard for you. I look on your facebook and see your pictures of your ex that you havnt deleted. Then I see old blogs you used to post about her and why cant I get that from you? Why cant I be the new person you love? I know that you are afraid but you are ripping me in half… I just want to feel like I belong with you. I dont want to feel like i like you way more than you like me. I fee so vulnerable because I have put my heart and my love into you. What have you given me? You tell me you really like me but you hardly ever show it latley I feel like its like pulling teeth to get you to show me how you feel… I feel like Id make sacrafices for you but I cant say the same for you. I know that youd pass me up if you had to. And then I ask myself will this ever be worth it? How long is to long to wait for someone to tell you they love you? Its been 6 months do I wait 2 more? 3? I just want to feel like what im feeling is being recipracated. I just want to feel like im what you want. I know you dont show affection well and if I want to be with you I cant change you or push you into anything you dont want.
